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* I believe Meghan and Harry and seriously fuck you BBC commentator who mocked them for "complaining and moaning."

* "No, I don’t deserve to be violently attacked in a queer space just because I’m fat:" https://www.pinknews.co.uk/2021/03/04/scottee-world-obesity-day-federartion-fatphobia-queer-gay-lgbt/

* "Archbishop of Canterbury condemns Nigerian primate’s description of gay people as a ‘virus’:" https://www.pinknews.co.uk/2021/03/07/archbishop-of-canterbury-nigeria-primate-gay-virus-anglican-henry-ndukuba/

* "Government LGBT+ adviser quits over fears Tories are ‘returning to days of Section 28’:" https://www.pinknews.co.uk/2021/03/10/jayne-ozanne-government-lgbt-advisory-panel-kemi-badenoch-liz-truss-conversion-therapy/

* "New Jersey Passes Landmark Bill Protecting LGBTQ+, HIV+ Seniors:" https://www.hivplusmag.com/news/2021/3/08/new-jersey-passes-landmark-bill-protecting-lgbtq-hiv-seniors

* "Mississippi, South Dakota Send Anti-LGBTQ+ Bills to Governors:" https://www.advocate.com/politics/2021/3/03/mississippi-south-dakota-send-anti-lgbtq-bills-governors

* "Homeless Trans Woman Jenna Franks Found Dead in North Carolina:" https://www.advocate.com/crime/2021/3/09/homeless-trans-woman-jenna-franks-found-dead-north-carolina

* "Houston Bakery Facing Two Anti-LGBTQ+ Discrimination Lawsuits:" https://www.advocate.com/crime/2021/3/10/houston-bakery-facing-two-anti-lgbtq-discrimination-lawsuits

* "President Biden, Immediately Allow Gay and Bi Men to Donate Blood:" https://www.advocate.com/commentary/2021/3/10/president-biden-immediately-allow-gay-and-bi-men-donate-blood

* Fuckssake wear a condom! "'Outbreak' of HIV, Syphilis in Minnesota:" https://www.hivplusmag.com/news/2021/3/08/outbreak-hiv-syphilis-minnesota

* "After 400 years away, England's beavers are protecting the landscape from flooding:" https://www.cnn.com/2021/03/03/europe/beavers-devon-flood-spc-cte-intl/index.html

* "Philippines reef littered with PPE face masks:" https://www.bbc.com/news/av/world-asia-56322369

* "How Lawyers Fight Climate Change:"

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* "The artists who outwitted the Nazis:" https://www.bbc.com/culture/article/20210223-the-artists-who-outwitted-the-nazis

* "How the Government Works with Dulce Sloan:" https://www.cc.com/video/s939s8/the-daily-show-with-trevor-noah-how-the-government-works-with-dulce-sloan

* "Bruce Springsteen - Ghosts:"

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* I've been having a severe pain incident for a little over a week, along with a bunch of the other things that periodically got wrong with my body, plus the thing I really am going to need to see a doctor about but we didn't have test results until late Friday. This happens. To give you an idea, on Friday and Sunday I was playing a particularly painful game of leg roulette every time I stood up. (That's the thing where you get so much pain that the legs don't really work properly and occasionally close. It makes bathroom trips extra exciting, as you can imagine.

At my level of chronic pain, anything I do hurts. Standing, sitting, lying down, moving, not moving. There's a baseline level of pain, the bits that really hurt, and a constant juggling act awake or asleep to keep shifting the really bad pain around so one spot doesn't get too bad for too long, because level ten pain mean it can literally take hours to move just enough to get an emergency pain pill that is less than afoot away from the closest arm.

I am not being dramatic. I am someone who must think through even small tasks in advance because literally everything is measured in where the pain is going to spike and how much. So the past week has been a nightmare even by my standards.

I went to the vaccine appointment, knowing how much painful standing there usually is for screening, check in etc.. I went in knowing "muscle aches" is a common side effect. I went in even though my legs tried to give out in the parking lot.

I am explaining this so you know where my baseline was before the shot.

The process itself was shockingly smooth. There wasn't even a screening line because they had four people on it. Seriously, I was impressed as hell with the level of streamlined and staffing. One door screener. One greeter downstairs to send medical patients through to the other waiting room and hand vaccine folk their paperwork and clipboard. Two dedicated check in people who also gave you the second shot appointment right then. Three actual vaccine stations with two staff each, plus a lady watching people for bad reactions in a socially distance waiting area. They stuck an erasable thingie to the pole on the back of each chair with the time you are allowed to leave.

Staff had all been second shot before end of January, so having so many wasn't an issue. Everyone properly masked, off course, bu you can't distance vaccination itself. I felt pretty safe, except with the elevator.

There are a lot of stairs you see. Stairs are dangerous for me at the best of time and on leg roulette day with that many hard, sharp edged stairs? That's begging to break something or tear something or get a head injury. Going down is far more dangerous than up.

They have helpfully put little Social distance X marks on the carpet for people waiting to individually use the elevator. (Yes, people together can go in together). So doors open. No one is inside. Ideal! I pop in. Doors start closing and a lady starts cursing at me because I didn't hold the door. She's insisting two per and cursing at me for being an asshole and I get a glimpse of her loosely masked face mask as it shuts. It's barely over her nose and huge gaps at either side of the nose and at the sides. I get it, standing up hurts, but even if I'd noticed her in time, I wouldn't have wanted to share the elevator with a badly masked stranger.

She's a bit rude to paperwork lady. She's at the other check in while I'm doing mine and she throws a massive tantrum because they do not have all three vaccines on hand so she doesn't get to personally pick the one she wants. We're literally a month behind on vaccinations in this county because they have sent so few here, and I knew we were getting either Pfiser or Moderna because they tell you you will need a second shot when you make the first appointment. Still, I would have happily taken whatever they gave me and was just thrilled we were getting Pfiser. But she didn't want Pfiser and it was like if she thought she threw a tantrum they would teleport the one she wanted here at her command. If she Karened hard enough and yelled high risk enough the nuse would pull a vial out of her ass just for her. Yes she was old and frail and high risk and in pain. Literally everyone there to get vaccinated to day had a super serious heart and/or lung condition, and I'd wager nearly all of us were in pain. It did not stop me being polite and grateful and I am and have bin in the kind of pain they'd give you Demerol for in a hospital off and on all week. It literal takes me three to four hours to make it out of bed right now. (Yes, I'm still doing the physio routine, with long gaps between reps and the expansion reps knocked off which I am allowed to do. To make that happen I have to do a lot of slow, super gentle passive stretching so the stabbed in the back sensation calms down enough for me to move my arms).

I spent 3-5 minutes sitting on the window ledge waiting to get jabbed, by which time the greeter and the check in people had just managed to convince her to stop yelling and sit down. So no one else could get checked in and she basically tied up three people with her assholery. Then one of them ad to go get a doctor to somehow make space in the schedule to talk her down. so she wasted a check in person's time. Poverty clinic schedules tight and works long days because they are always behind and they see everyone with an appointment even if it takes an extra hour or two. It's not that doctor's time she's wasting, but at least two nurses and everyone who had an appointment after 10:15 or so with that Doctor who just got their appointment shoved back.

A get my jab. I read my info sheet the rest of the way through and start on a short story. My time's up and I am gimping to the elevator to leave, when I see one of them escorting her from the tantrum chair to the wait to get vaccinated area. So she did get her jab, and I'm glad she did, but Jesus fuck was she an asshole to everyone she interacted with that I saw at the clinic that day, and they were so sweet and polite and patient with her.

I fucking love Poverty Clinic. I've literally never had a better GP than the one I have right now there and the people are so wonderful and they've all worked like titans to keep people safe and alive this year and absolutely do NOT deserve this shit. I bet it happens a lot.

I had cleverly saved some cash for take out because I knew I should eat because god knows what shape I'd be in later. There are literally two edible to me fast foods between downtown and home, not counting Starbucks. Only one has a drive thru and I don't go inside anywhere I don't have to because pandemic. Assuming I don't get infected it was very much the correct choice. I ate.

Housing tax had just arrived,and I forced my self to write the check and mask back up to hobble it out to the mail slot and back. I was exhausted when I left the house, but I know vaccine tired when I feel it and it descended on me like wet sand when I was almost to my door. This mini-trip also was the correct decision.

I still needed to do the usual checklist of things and bathe. Daily hydrotherapy is as essential as food at this stage in my deterioration. I would have been fucked without the grab bars, but you could have said the same about Sunday.

I slept as long as I could. The pain on waking was stunning. Thing is though? I've been in pain since 1986. Literally everyone I know know not counting two (2) family members, or who have not seen me really drunk have ever seen me when I wasn't in pain. I know pain intimately. I definitely know chronic pain vs flu or vaccine muscle ache. Yes there is muscle ache in there and it does make it worse by like a pain level? But if you removed everything chronic pain, this is nothing. Minor shit I would happily trade for my baseline on a good day daily pain. Sure the upper arm and especially the injection site hurt like a motherfucker if I touch it with my fingers and the left shoulder joint is up a pain level, but it's not even close to the right side shoulder joint on a good day. And yeah, I'm tired, but it's not that much worse than, say Friday. I did clock two tiny dizzy spells and I think my lungs are a little less clear than before the shot, but it's within what I consider my lung patient realm of normal and the only time I had trouble was when I had to scoop the litter box and that always fucks me up.

Short version? I got my first Pfizer shot. Second is already scheduled. If you X out the chronic stuff, the actual side effects were mild, it's just adding extra to a pile of Jesus Fuck I've been dealing with a weekish. Second dose will likely suck a lot more, judging from Squirrel and lots of vaccine related news coverage, but it is nothing next to getting covid, and I would gladly take Vaccine side effects rather than the AS and CF stuff I deal with every day. Trust me.

So get the damned shot, whatever shot when they offer it. (The ones that aren't working so well as not in the US. Seriously, just get the shot when your number comes up. I'd have taken whatever they gave me).

And don't be That Lady. Be nice to your provider because they are working their asses off to try to save your life.

* Update: Despite having no fever, I had the sort of dreams I normally have with a high fever. Just before bed, I'd developed a headache. It was dramatically worse between 4 and 7PM of the second day. My lungs had a really rough hour starting around four thirty, but they are almost back to where there were before yesterday morning's shot as of 9:30PM Tuesday. The muscle aches are almost over. Right now I'm dealing with chronic stuff plus general ick and the remains of the headache. Still totally worth it. It isn't even a question.

* "Sunday Sweets: No More Tiers:" https://www.cakewrecks.com/home/2021/3/7/sunday-sweets-no-more-tiers

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* Full list of Resistance and charity links has been migrated to my profile as it was getting out of hand.

The help links are at the bottom under the cut.

* Ways to help people in Texas: https://spockvarietyhour.tumblr.com/post/643435770019987456
https://omgthatdress.tumblr.com/post/643431809724628992

More Texas how to help links: https://omgthatdress.tumblr.com/post/643431809724628992

* "You Can Buy Girl Scout Cookies From Troop Of Girls In NYC Shelter System:" https://www.scarymommy.com/troop-6000-girl-scouts-nyc-shelters/

* More Girl Scout Troops in Particular Need: https://tuulikki.tumblr.com/post/643247412337639424/girl-scout-cookie-time

* Cat Rescue Fundraiser: https://gwydionmisha.tumblr.com/post/642429918533304320/design-a-tea-where-tea-leaves-dream-custom

"The Midwest Immigration Bond Fund!:" https://secure.actblue.com/donate/midwestibf

* The Blackfeet are under Covid lockdown and need food pantry donations: https://www.fastblackfeet.org/campaigns/fast-blackfeet/

* What to help fight for queer people in Africa? Try the Initiative Sankofa D’Afrique de l’Ouest www.ISDAO.org

* Organizations to help trans folk: https://gwydionmisha.tumblr.com/post/620857152453640195/about-us

* "How to Safely and Ethically Film Police Misconduct:" https://www.teenvogue.com/story/how-to-film-police-safely

* Master Post for how to help organizations fighting Police violence: https://gwydionmisha.tumblr.com/post/620861026680881152/oberynmartell-list-of-black-lives-matter-and

* How to donate to Doctors Without Borders: https://donate.doctorswithoutborders.org/onetime.cfm?source=ADD200U0U00&utm_source=google&utm_medium=cpc&utm_campaign=googlepaid&utm_content=brand&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIz8D9kYu46QIVqh6tBh2WogxQEAAYASAAEgK4FfD_BwE

* "Covid 19 Support for Indigenous Communities:" https://bibliomancer7.tumblr.com/post/616704253038395392/covid-19-support-for-indigenous-communities

* "Navajo Nation COVID-19 Relief Fund:" http://www.nndoh.org/donate.html

* "SUPPORT WORKERS IN CRISIS:" https://ofwemergencyfund.org/

* "Support Artists Impacted By the Covid-19 Pandemic:" https://daily.bandcamp.com/features/bandcamp-covid-19-fundraiser

* Register to vote: https://vote.gov/

* A list of organizations to help you run for office: http://lovingmyselfishard.tumblr.com/post/167330144634/psst-hey

* The Indivisble guide exists to help you organize effective resistance: https://indivisible.org/

* Have something you want to tell your Congress Critters? If you can't safely protest in person, here are some other options:

Call the Capitol Switchboard at (202) 224-3121 and ask to be connected to the representative of your choice.

This App phones your rep for you: http://takeastance.us/

Here is one that will send your reps a fax: https://resistbot.io/

* Help pay for cat food, litter, meds, medical copays: Paypal Lethran@gmail.com or paypal.me/Gwydion

* If you are interested in helping, right now the Cat things we need most are:
https://www.chewy.com/wellness-core-signature-selects/dp/147047

https://www.chewy.com/blue-buffalo-wilderness-flatland/dp/176663

* Birthday/Solstice master list: https://gwydion.dreamwidth.org/2108835.html

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