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Oh man, S3 is like... I'm curious to see what it seems like when it's watched all at once, because it faked me out a few times, and now in S4 we're sort of only going, "OH, WAIT, NO, THAT WAS CLEAR IN LIKE S3 AND WE DIDN"T SEE IT."

You've been reading my stuff enough to know about the suicide plotline, right? Have you seen that episode yet?

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Yes, I have been reading you and I know about the suicide plotline. I've had Scandals, but not the rest. I'm at the godawful proposal as of this evening, and only have the first three discs for this watching.

The thing that grabbed me is how rapey the Uptown Girl sequence is. The Warbler choreography under Blaine reminded me of songbirds in cages. In Uptown Girl, it reminded me of a horde of rate or wolves. The woman had that fixed smile on her face. I kept thinking how fake it looked, like she was pretending their behavior was cute and eccentric, while underneath it was terrifying. It was certainly terrifying to me. I thing the song choice was interesting, given the class issues underlying that scene, how opposite it was. They are rich, after all, and private school employees are generally paid significantly worse than Public school counterparts. Assuming that the woman is a employee at the school, they have taken a supposedly romantic song about a working class boy dating a rich girl and turning it into a pack of rich boys sexually harassing a working class woman. It's clearly part of the complicated class narrative going on from season two, but I think I need more thinking to piece the whole thought together.

I'm sticking to my belief that Dalton in Season 2 is Private School on it's best behavior showing surface polish to parents and Dalton of Season 3 is Private school as it is when the grown ups aren't looking, red of tooth and claw, full of quiet violence and sexual threat. Sebastian reminds me of Todd McGarghy, who used to siddle up to me in places like the lunch line or class where I couldn't get away and whisper his rape fantasies about me into my ear every day starting in sixth grade. I spent a lot of time avoiding letting him and guys like Holenbeck corner me anywhere private. It makes me genuinely scared for Santana's safety every single confrontation they have.

I'm getting what you get about Blaine, but we've always been on the same page with him: that it's all an act to convince everyone he's okay when he's so very much not. That he's profoundly damaged and it may have to do with molestation. The masturbation talk scene creeped me out. I took a lot of boy's virginities back in the day. I've seen a whole host of first time anxieties from boys. Blaine's response to things is full of red flags, and his pretending it's all about Kurt and not his own issues says he's not worked through things enough to talk honestly to Kurt about it, which in turn says he's likely not ready to be with someone and the crash is going to be ugly. Add this to the only able to express lust when drinking and the can't draw boundaries with Sebastian thing, and yeah, I'm doing the map and coming up all the places you are. The way he drinks scares me. It reminds me of a scary downward spiral that happened to a boy I dated as a college sophomore. There's social drinking and then there's "I'm really fucked up and not handling it" drinking. That looks like the second kind and that goes bad places fast even though right now it's oly the one or two social beers stage. I dated several guys back in the day who had a mature looking "I have it all together" facade that crumbled when you touched it wrong. I'm Klaine all the way, but I'm scared for both of them because I see the warning signs and I've traveled that dark passage several times before I was twenty one and didn't handle it all that well. Its hard enough as an adult with adult relationship tools. To do it that young... I so wasn't ready despite all the other shit I survived. I don't think Kurt's ready despite all the other shit he's survived either. I get exactly how that sort of life ages you faster in some ways but having been there I also get how it tricks you into thinking you can handle anything, and it's not the case.