So here is the deal.
Jun. 30th, 2018 02:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gwydionMy lungs continue bad which causes a whole host of problems. I stayed up to forage Friday, and by the end, one of my hips was barely working and the associated foot was doing the the Little Mermaid walking on knives thing. I've had crap for sleep for... I've lost track. Maybe two weeks? My body is doing te things that suggest it's about to pull a full on tantrum for third time in less than a month, which involves nearly everything being borderline to mostly non-functional for 2-6 hours (lately 4ish), and the kind of pain that proves to my high pain resistance self that the saying that "everyone eventually breaks under torture' is true. Even with 30+ years of tricks learned dealing with a body held together by metaphorical paperclip and duct tape, I haven't managed to stabilize my system. I've also been maximum effort on the family separation thing as one can likely tell from my output. Add in meds disruption and technology breaking down and the SCOTUS situation and the shooting in Annapolis and the rest of it and... yeah.
For my dreamwith friends, I am trying to catch up on a week of entries, but I simply haven't energy to social even in the small way I do on social media. I stared at the right wing stuff trickling in on my tumblr the way it does when ever something I write catches on, and I simply haven't the emotional energy to moderate let alone engage. None of this means I don't care. I just don't have enough left spoons wise just now and likely won't until i can get my body to be slightly more cooperative. Or until the world stops threatening to end within the next 4-6 months. I figure my body is the more reasonable goal here. Anyway, I very much care collectively and individually, I'm just not able to do all the the things I'd normally do given the givens.
For my dreamwith friends, I am trying to catch up on a week of entries, but I simply haven't energy to social even in the small way I do on social media. I stared at the right wing stuff trickling in on my tumblr the way it does when ever something I write catches on, and I simply haven't the emotional energy to moderate let alone engage. None of this means I don't care. I just don't have enough left spoons wise just now and likely won't until i can get my body to be slightly more cooperative. Or until the world stops threatening to end within the next 4-6 months. I figure my body is the more reasonable goal here. Anyway, I very much care collectively and individually, I'm just not able to do all the the things I'd normally do given the givens.