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gwydion* "How a Trump SoHo Partner Ended Up With Toxic Mining Riches From Kazakhstan:" https://www.bloomberg.com/news/features/2018-01-11/how-a-trump-soho-partner-ended-up-with-toxic-mining-riches-from-kazakhstan
* "Sketchy money finds its way into Trump deals:" http://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow/watch/sketchy-kazakh-money-finds-its-way-into-trump-dealings-1137745475847?v=a
* "Red flags seen in Trump real estate deals:" http://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow/watch/red-flags-seen-in-trump-real-estate-deals-1137725507731?v=a
* "MLK Day inspires Americans; Trump golfs:" http://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow/watch/mlk-day-inspires-americans-to-service-remembrance-trump-golfs-1137720899577?v=a
* "Trump plays golf on MLK Jr. Day, a day of service:" http://www.msnbc.com/all-in/watch/trump-plays-golf-on-mlk-jr-day-a-day-of-service-1137639491980?v=a
* "With Pence in front row, pastor rips into Trump:" http://www.msnbc.com/all-in/watch/with-pence-in-front-row-pastor-rips-into-trump-1137650755745?v=a
* "Haitians In Florida Protest Trump's 'Shithole' Comments, Demand Apology:" https://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/florida-haitians-protest-trump_us_5a5cfa19e4b03c4189682e93
* "South Africa, Ghana summon US diplomats after Trump remark:" http://www.cnn.com/2018/01/15/politics/diplomatic-fallout-trump-comment/index.html
* Her replacement is nearly as bad. Sigh. "Anti-birth control official who led Title X departs HHS:" https://www.politico.com/story/2018/01/12/teresa-manning-hhs-title-x-escorted-premises-339514
* "Happy King Day 2018!:" http://transgriot.blogspot.com/2018/01/happy-king-day-2018.html
* "Daroneshia's Dream:" http://transgriot.blogspot.com/2018/01/daroneshias-dream.html
* I'm not crying, you're crying. "Mom coordinates free lunch for kids when schools close in cold:" http://abcnews.go.com/Lifestyle/mom-organizes-free-lunches-200-kids-schools-close/story?id=52161415
* So I'm still reading Andrew Holleran's Chronicle of a Plague, Revisited. I know, I know, it's only 264 pages, but it captures so brilliantly in it's pages the world lost and the apocalyptic feel of the '80's. It manages to capture unending loss and change both of a handful of individual men mourned, but the way the world changed and the people experiencing the heart of it adapted or didn't, the way New York City changed didn't, the people and things and places and the culture lost. Somehow little slices of a horror to big to encompass make it possible to start encompassing it. The writing is so good it would make me ache even if it weren't so fundamentally about mourning and adapting to a continuous state of mourning. So it's taking me some time, because however beautifully written, mourning is a thing best done over time.
I think next time a young person asks me what the plague was like, I will point them at this book first.
I emerged from my cave and after lungs, I was watching the last half of Bowie: The Last Five Years while I tried to do some of the things needing doing while I had the strength for them. It felt... very like the '80's too, for all that Bowie died of an ordinary cancer after one of the fullest lives it is possible to live, instead of far too young in the time of Plague. I think it was the wild burst of creativity at the end, the desperate urge to get as much of what he had to say out as fast as possible, the sense of impending imminent darkness and the need to create in the face of impending nothing. I couldn't help but think of all those incredibly talented, clever, skilled creative people trying desperately to make on last thing in the '80's and first half of the '90's, all though voices screaming, singing, whispering into the dark. It felt like that, watching those last projects, seeing the devastation that is the Darkstar video. Not exactly the same, but akin.
* I know today was meant to be a Day of Service, but it took three hours to get dressed and medicated today, and after dishes, doing things the fish needed, and feeding myself, there was simply next to nothing left. The effort of sitting up and trying to read has involved periodically bursting into tears because it's That Bad. I am fairy sure I'm either still stick or caught a third thing, likely a virus.
I know this likely seems hypocritical, but I also 1. haven't run for office on a large number of good grounds such as I'm not well enough to guarantee attendance at things like school board or city council meetings, I don't like touching strangers, and while the list of people of fucked on the news would be a great source of entertainment to myself and friends my wide and varied sex life before I got sick is not conducive to office holding, etc.. 2. I'm clearly not healthy enough to have spent all day golfing and promoting my business as a form of "public service." I am self aware enough to know I can't physically handle the rigors of even small level local office let alone the presidency. If 45 didn't want to do the job and knew he was too ill and or lazy to do it he A. Shouldn't have run, and B. should resign. Sick as I am, if I were by some strange twist of fate made President, I'd at least do the fucking reading and pay attention in the security and foreign policy briefings. I'd make an effort to actually hire people who could actually do their jobs instead of a cabinet of Deplorables. I'd at least make an effort or resign. Part of he job is going to public events and doing things like a day of service. Again, I'm not qualified for the job because I physically can't for the most part. I know that. I kind of feel like someone who is so ignorant he thinks Africa is a country and that golfing and self promotion are public service isn't qualified for dog catcher let alone the leader of a nuclear power.
* Me watching Women's US Championship Short Program: You know you screwed the pooch when they don't show you in the kiss and cry and instead tack your score on as a By the way onto the next woman's program. Ouch. Some of these are heartbreaking.
I amn't going to try to write about any of this in any detail, because frankly, I'm finding everything incredibly challenging just now. I will say, that Marai is still my favorite of the current crop of American women, with Karen as my second favorite, though I am liking several of the up an comers.
*****
* Full list of Resistance and charity links has been migrated to my profile as it was getting out of hand.
* "Help us stop the humanitarian crisis on Manus:" https://www.asrc.org.au/donate-now/
* "RISE (Refugees, Survivors and Ex-Detainees):" https://www.givenow.com.au/riserefugee/donate
* How to help Rohingya refugees: https://www.nytimes.com/2017/09/29/world/asia/rohingya-aid-myanmar-bangladesh.html?emc=edit_nn_20171012&nl=morning-briefing&nlid=50784086&te=1&_r=0
* A list of organizations to help you run for office: http://lovingmyselfishard.tumblr.com/post/167330144634/psst-hey
* Trans Lifeline is one of those organizations you can call at (877) 565-8860 in the US and in Canada (877) 330- 6366.
* The Trevor Project has a 24 hour hotline geared toward helping our youth, and you can call it at 1-866-488-7386
* Call the Capitol Switchboard at (202) 224-3121 and ask to be connected to the representative of your choice.
* This App phones your rep for you: http://takeastance.us/
* Here is one that will send your reps a fax: https://resistbot.io/
* Help pay for cat food, litter, meds, medical copays: Paypal Lethran@gmail.com
* Birthday/Solstice master list: https://gwydion.dreamwidth.org/1925021.html
* Want Game of Thrones without the creepy? We need new players. We are very inclusive. "Game of Bones MUSH:" gobmush.wikidot.com
* "Sketchy money finds its way into Trump deals:" http://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow/watch/sketchy-kazakh-money-finds-its-way-into-trump-dealings-1137745475847?v=a
* "Red flags seen in Trump real estate deals:" http://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow/watch/red-flags-seen-in-trump-real-estate-deals-1137725507731?v=a
* "MLK Day inspires Americans; Trump golfs:" http://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow/watch/mlk-day-inspires-americans-to-service-remembrance-trump-golfs-1137720899577?v=a
* "Trump plays golf on MLK Jr. Day, a day of service:" http://www.msnbc.com/all-in/watch/trump-plays-golf-on-mlk-jr-day-a-day-of-service-1137639491980?v=a
* "With Pence in front row, pastor rips into Trump:" http://www.msnbc.com/all-in/watch/with-pence-in-front-row-pastor-rips-into-trump-1137650755745?v=a
* "Haitians In Florida Protest Trump's 'Shithole' Comments, Demand Apology:" https://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/florida-haitians-protest-trump_us_5a5cfa19e4b03c4189682e93
* "South Africa, Ghana summon US diplomats after Trump remark:" http://www.cnn.com/2018/01/15/politics/diplomatic-fallout-trump-comment/index.html
* Her replacement is nearly as bad. Sigh. "Anti-birth control official who led Title X departs HHS:" https://www.politico.com/story/2018/01/12/teresa-manning-hhs-title-x-escorted-premises-339514
* "Happy King Day 2018!:" http://transgriot.blogspot.com/2018/01/happy-king-day-2018.html
* "Daroneshia's Dream:" http://transgriot.blogspot.com/2018/01/daroneshias-dream.html
* I'm not crying, you're crying. "Mom coordinates free lunch for kids when schools close in cold:" http://abcnews.go.com/Lifestyle/mom-organizes-free-lunches-200-kids-schools-close/story?id=52161415
* So I'm still reading Andrew Holleran's Chronicle of a Plague, Revisited. I know, I know, it's only 264 pages, but it captures so brilliantly in it's pages the world lost and the apocalyptic feel of the '80's. It manages to capture unending loss and change both of a handful of individual men mourned, but the way the world changed and the people experiencing the heart of it adapted or didn't, the way New York City changed didn't, the people and things and places and the culture lost. Somehow little slices of a horror to big to encompass make it possible to start encompassing it. The writing is so good it would make me ache even if it weren't so fundamentally about mourning and adapting to a continuous state of mourning. So it's taking me some time, because however beautifully written, mourning is a thing best done over time.
I think next time a young person asks me what the plague was like, I will point them at this book first.
I emerged from my cave and after lungs, I was watching the last half of Bowie: The Last Five Years while I tried to do some of the things needing doing while I had the strength for them. It felt... very like the '80's too, for all that Bowie died of an ordinary cancer after one of the fullest lives it is possible to live, instead of far too young in the time of Plague. I think it was the wild burst of creativity at the end, the desperate urge to get as much of what he had to say out as fast as possible, the sense of impending imminent darkness and the need to create in the face of impending nothing. I couldn't help but think of all those incredibly talented, clever, skilled creative people trying desperately to make on last thing in the '80's and first half of the '90's, all though voices screaming, singing, whispering into the dark. It felt like that, watching those last projects, seeing the devastation that is the Darkstar video. Not exactly the same, but akin.
* I know today was meant to be a Day of Service, but it took three hours to get dressed and medicated today, and after dishes, doing things the fish needed, and feeding myself, there was simply next to nothing left. The effort of sitting up and trying to read has involved periodically bursting into tears because it's That Bad. I am fairy sure I'm either still stick or caught a third thing, likely a virus.
I know this likely seems hypocritical, but I also 1. haven't run for office on a large number of good grounds such as I'm not well enough to guarantee attendance at things like school board or city council meetings, I don't like touching strangers, and while the list of people of fucked on the news would be a great source of entertainment to myself and friends my wide and varied sex life before I got sick is not conducive to office holding, etc.. 2. I'm clearly not healthy enough to have spent all day golfing and promoting my business as a form of "public service." I am self aware enough to know I can't physically handle the rigors of even small level local office let alone the presidency. If 45 didn't want to do the job and knew he was too ill and or lazy to do it he A. Shouldn't have run, and B. should resign. Sick as I am, if I were by some strange twist of fate made President, I'd at least do the fucking reading and pay attention in the security and foreign policy briefings. I'd make an effort to actually hire people who could actually do their jobs instead of a cabinet of Deplorables. I'd at least make an effort or resign. Part of he job is going to public events and doing things like a day of service. Again, I'm not qualified for the job because I physically can't for the most part. I know that. I kind of feel like someone who is so ignorant he thinks Africa is a country and that golfing and self promotion are public service isn't qualified for dog catcher let alone the leader of a nuclear power.
* Me watching Women's US Championship Short Program: You know you screwed the pooch when they don't show you in the kiss and cry and instead tack your score on as a By the way onto the next woman's program. Ouch. Some of these are heartbreaking.
I amn't going to try to write about any of this in any detail, because frankly, I'm finding everything incredibly challenging just now. I will say, that Marai is still my favorite of the current crop of American women, with Karen as my second favorite, though I am liking several of the up an comers.
*****
* Full list of Resistance and charity links has been migrated to my profile as it was getting out of hand.
* "Help us stop the humanitarian crisis on Manus:" https://www.asrc.org.au/donate-now/
* "RISE (Refugees, Survivors and Ex-Detainees):" https://www.givenow.com.au/riserefugee/donate
* How to help Rohingya refugees: https://www.nytimes.com/2017/09/29/world/asia/rohingya-aid-myanmar-bangladesh.html?emc=edit_nn_20171012&nl=morning-briefing&nlid=50784086&te=1&_r=0
* A list of organizations to help you run for office: http://lovingmyselfishard.tumblr.com/post/167330144634/psst-hey
* Trans Lifeline is one of those organizations you can call at (877) 565-8860 in the US and in Canada (877) 330- 6366.
* The Trevor Project has a 24 hour hotline geared toward helping our youth, and you can call it at 1-866-488-7386
* Call the Capitol Switchboard at (202) 224-3121 and ask to be connected to the representative of your choice.
* This App phones your rep for you: http://takeastance.us/
* Here is one that will send your reps a fax: https://resistbot.io/
* Help pay for cat food, litter, meds, medical copays: Paypal Lethran@gmail.com
* Birthday/Solstice master list: https://gwydion.dreamwidth.org/1925021.html
* Want Game of Thrones without the creepy? We need new players. We are very inclusive. "Game of Bones MUSH:" gobmush.wikidot.com